Okay, I was walking home from work on sunday morning when I looked down onto the street and I saw a little white blip on the sidewalk ahead of me. I walked towards it and looked down upon it in utter curiosity and I saw two little feet protruding forth from this little white figure on the cement. I flipped it over with my shoe and discovered it was a little dead bird. I felt sorrowful for this tiny creature and removed my bandanna and gently picked it up and wrapped it. It's eyes were still open and clear, meaning it died very recently. I carried it home with utmost care and immediately buried it in my back yard, giving it a proper burial, rather than it's other fates, either being stepped-on or being eaten by a cat. It was really sad.. *Snifflesnort*

School, Work, Home, Sleeping, Eating.. That is currently my life.. I hate the feeling of alone-ness thatI have been feeling for the past month or so.. At first I was fine with being comfined between the four walls that is my house, but now I feel empty. Reading and hearing about the awesome goodtimes that my friends have without me are simply horrible. I hate this sense of emptiness and lonliness. To amplify it, I have nobody in my life at this point in time whom I can turn to and have them hold me so I can cry. I have nobody who will not judge me for the actions I make because the most important person in the world to me right now, I am not allowed to see her. And When I get the chance to, she isn't there. I feel so alone, that I cannot see my very bets friend in the whole world and it tears me apart knowing that she has basically moved on. She is going on living her life making new friends haveing a fucking blast, making life fun. I only hope she has twice as much fun for me. I hope she can make up for the loss of me. I hope she parties twice as  hard, lauchs twice as much, and sorrows twice as passionately, Just for me. Just for my absence in her life. Because I know I do. I know that every moment in my life I think of that silver lining, That silver lining is her. She is the bright side.. But unfortunately she isn't around anymore for me. I have no silver lining, I have no brightside to look at. I feel as though she is so far away from me it is almost physically painful. I hate this feeling of solitude. It's fucking shitty, It makes me kinda want to start drinking again... Drinking alot... Like I used to when I had "Nothing to lose". I feel like I should tear it all down, everything I have worked towards, because I feel as though I have nothing to work for anymore. I'm just a shell.. Just a plain, featureless shell...

Never forget that I’ll always be here,

Never forget the good times we had.

Always remember that today could be your last,

So live in the moment and hope for the best.

Never say ‘On another day’

Never say I’ll do it tomorrow.

Because for all you know this moment might be your last

If you don’t remember my words to you

Then remember that I’ll always be here for you.

If I’m not going to be here today

Then I’ll always have been there for you yesterday.

I might not be here in the future

So remember how much I really love you.

I’ll never forget you
As I hope you won’t, me.

I hope you’ll forgive me

For everything I’ve done to you

I hope you’ll remember me not for what I was

I hope you’ll remember me for who I always will be.

Never regret being my friend

Never regret loving me

Because I would never regret turning to you

I’ll never forget All those times with you

Never forget me because one day I’ll be gone

That day might come soon

So remember everyone

In your life here right now

In your life yesterday In your life tomorrow

Treasure every moment you spend with your love

And enjoy every second even though you feel down

Never feel hopeless

Because you’ll always have me

Never forget me, even when I’m gone